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notes from Kamachumu in Kagera in Tanzania in Africa

' Despite it all, we still like you. ' – Abraham, on Tanzanians' general attitude toward white people. ****************************************************************** "Hello supervisor, can we have the vital operating budget we were allocated?" "Hello! No; it's not here." "Oh no! That sucks. Can I just pay it for them, then?" "Heavens no! That would breed aid dependency." "Oh. Well, maybe. Can I lend it to them until the budget comes through?" "Heavens no! That would breach the equality of volunteers! We have planned under the assumption that volunteers have no no money." "But that assumption isn't true - look, here's my lunch money." "Yes. So?" "... ... ...So in fact we're playing a game here? A game, with these people's lives: SimVSO. This whole strand of the project is to be undone over £4 of printing costs?" "Welcome to th

why it?

Just fun and fertilisation? No: we come and we go and so on: I wanted to do it to say I had done it I wanted to try something new I wanted him to like me I wanted him to shut up about it I wanted to feel good about myself I wanted her to feel good about herself I wanted to let off steam I just wanted him, alright. so hot. It was New Year's. I wanted to get back at my husband I wanted to say thank you I needed the money I needed the job I wanted the guys to respect me I wanted some of her glamour to rub off I was bored I wanted the exercise I did not feel safe to say no. I wanted them because they wanted me I wanted her; she's so smart I wanted to say I'd missed him I wanted her; she's so funny I wanted to feel powerful I wanted to feel power I wanted to improve I wanted to be ready for my real first time It had been a while. I wanted to humiliate someone I wanted to punish myself I did it for a bet I was forced to do it